tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-28153333385047210882024-03-18T21:36:59.949-07:00Things EsotericInsights, perceptions, contemplations,and spiritual growth and increasing awareness over the years.Unknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger38125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2815333338504721088.post-43121606346027352272013-01-03T10:39:00.000-08:002013-01-03T10:39:57.123-08:00Granddaughter Named GraceLast August I had a vivid dream in which I was holding a young baby. I realized it was my granddaughter, and her name was Grace. After I awakened, I pondered it a bit, wondered which beautiful son was going to produce my granddaughter, Grace. I decided I'd keep the dream to myself and only told Richard about it, and left it with, "We'll see!"<br />
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I have dreamt many times of being pregnant or holding new babies or even giving birth. To me, as one beyond reproduction, it has represented being pregnant with possibilities and plans, or giving birth to new adventures or ventures, and the new baby represents the beginning, the commencement of a project.<br />
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I hadn't gone there with this dream because it was my <i>granddaughter,</i> not my own pregnancy, birth or baby. I was going to be content with waiting to see which son produced my beautiful granddaughter named Grace. I was aware that I could have many years before Grace came to fruition...<br />
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As it turns out, through a revelation I had this morning after an intense night of wild dreams, is that my granddaughter named Grace has been birthed and fully engaged in Her new life. Since the time of the dream in August I have been truly Graced and Blessed with the connection made with my middle son's "secret" girlfriend (as we fondly refer to her). Through this connection, I have been able to more fully see and experience my son from a new perspective, through someone else's eyes. I am thrilled to no measure that they have found this love and that he appears to be thriving in it. This brings me great joy! <br />
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Whatever becomes of this connection, I bask in this now, and fully celebrate my "granddaughter" Grace (for this is what they have created together!). I am so grateful for these moments of knowledge.<br />
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Grace, indeed! Blessings too!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2815333338504721088.post-57013120109684205542012-12-19T09:52:00.000-08:002012-12-19T09:52:06.161-08:00Hot Cocoa Recipe 12-19-12I will post this here, since this is my most current blog - yum! Love my VitaMix!!!<br />
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Cacao nibs arrived yesterday from Mountain Rose Herbs, as did several seeds for sprouting and apparati for sprouting - those are in process, but this couldn't wait! I was super excited to experiment with the cacao nibs to start making my own sugar-free (stevia-sweetened) chocolate treats. <br />
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2 cups non-carageenan containing Almond drink (I used 365 Organics from Whole Foods) or other dairy or non-dairy alternative.<br />
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1/2 inch vanilla bean (this I also received from Mountain Rose Herbs)<br />
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This video is worth taking the 43 minutes to watch. It may be challenging on many levels, or it may not be. What he kept saying would make people angry, didn't make me angry. The concept of "synthetic light" is new to me, though. It also helps explain my own personal movement away from the "mainstream" New Age movement. Kind of a strange oxymoron "mainstream New Age". Hmm. I definitely found the information and transformation and healing within the New Age, or New Thought (Religious Science) movement very helpful in learning about myself and learning many techniques to aid in healing, especially at an emotional level. I realized through it all that it IS an organized religion, with doctrines as George V. talks about in this Youtube video, and I had an awareness and a bit of repelling to the "big" and getting bigger Luminaries, many of whom are hosting events throughout the world on Friday to bring light in... Very very very interesting. <br />
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Interesting, partly because yesterday, as part of my Enhanced by the Light intention, I had a dear acupuncturist friend do an Antakarana (Rainbow Bridge) acutreatment on me, to help stimulate my pineal gland (which George V. indicates is an artificial implant in all of us), and enhance whatever is to be enhanced by the light. We also played with tuning forks for Om, pineal activation, and manifesting, as well as her beautiful Tibetan singing bowl. I felt very relaxed afterward... I was pretty relaxed going in, but was even more so afterward, which is a great effect of acupuncture and allowing oneself to be nurtured, regardless of the intention of the treatment. <br />
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For me, personally, much of the healing and balancing of the chakras has taken place (George V.'s concept of not having his chakras anymore is interesting, too). My kundalini was activated beginning in 2000, and supercharged in 2005, and I feel a lot of karma has been resolved since this time. I completely resonate with his feeling as though he's living in Grace. He had a cool term for it, which I was going to share, but watch the video and you'll hear it. For the past few years I feel I've been in a holding pattern, sharing my Light through my Heart. Learning more about Heart energy, not Heart chakra, but the large and small torroidal fields around the Heart, and living from that, rather than from fear, or from my mind.<br />
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He is right in that there is dogma, even if not acknowledged, in the New Age/Thought world, and the true place to be is within your own heart, not giving power away to this one or that one, or to fear or to all of the conflicting information that we are bombarded with daily, no matter how sheltered we are. Isn't this what I've been saying all along? The main truth is for each of us to be authentically true to ourselves, through our hearts, and share our lights fully, from our hearts, no matter what day it is.<br />
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I still feel the Antakarana treatment was right for me to do for myself. Mostly an experiment, and I really like that one of the points used helped to activate the higher aspects of the heart chakra - which I'm going to translate to the fields around the heart (just in case my chakras are gone, too). And, you can't beat the sound of Om, to deeply connect with Mother Earth and all that is.<br />
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Our Solstice ceremony this year is going to be very subdued, and similar to the ones my mother and I have done over the past 10-12 years, including Richard in the past few years. An intentional release of the things that we are ready to let go of, burned up in the fire. This is very freeing. Then setting our intentions for the next year cycle, or maybe in this case, the next 13,000 year cycle. :-) It's what we've always done, and it helps to free our hearts and minds to better connect with ourselves and live our lives more fully. I've learned over the years that the less defined my intentions are, and the less attached to specific outcomes I am, the happier I am with whatever and with what is. I am very content with living an intended Heart-centered life full of Grace and True Joy, to live fully from my Heart. I'll leave the details up to Life.<br />
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I have not been drawn to be anywhere more spectacular than my own cozy home with my cozy husband on this Dawn of a New Age. This is the life I've created for myself, through loving myself and my Life, and expressing my Authentic Self through my Heart. What better place to celebrate and share light from our hearts with Mother Earth?<br />
<br />Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2815333338504721088.post-7379944184511874352012-12-16T09:30:00.001-08:002012-12-16T09:31:09.623-08:00Enhanced by the Light - Day 5 12-15-12 and Day 6 12-16-12So, Friday wasn't such a great day, and I had really felt as though I was feeling heavier and heavier - in heart, mind and body. Was I ever going to feel good? Sheesh, here I was drinking all of these veggies, doing yoga, walking, meditating and feeling crummier and crummier. <br />
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Saturday morning I woke up feeling lots less emotionally drained than I went to bed Friday night, so that was good. We started the day with a smoothie (apple, banana, pomegranate seeds, mustard greens, kale, and watercress. We then walked into Evergreen, it was very very cold, and had a yummy brunch at the One World Cafe: Huevos, hold the cheese, homemade corn tortillas. Yum. Then we walked home in the chill. Oh, yes, I was thinking I'd have some coffee, but I didn't - I had earl grey, and English breakfast tea instead. That did the trick. My mind was clear, my body felt light, and we got lots done yesterday. I felt really really good. We made some really delicious homemade, gluten-free, dairy-free, red enchiladas with calabacitas for a filling for dinner. I took a break from the yoga, and allowed my body to rest from all of the work early in the week. Our evening green smoothie was more of a soup: tomatoes, avocado, red pepper, basil, and greens - I can't remember which ones at this point. I was very glad to feel so much better, and better capable of sharing light and love through the mayhem of the darkness of mankind. There is lots of Light out there, and many good things that happen. Someone recently posted a suggestion to put out a jar on the first of the year, and every time something good happens, write it down and put it in the jar. Then at the end of the year, take it all out and read through all of the great things that happened. I saw another suggestion that said to keep two jars, one for the good, and one for the negative, review at the end of the year - get rid of the negative, keep the good. I'm not sure why one would want to do that, hang onto the negative for so long. I say the less we spend thinking about the negative, the better - I'm all for the one jar method, and don't even give the negative events another negative thought.<br />
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Today, Sunday, I'm still feeling a little groggy, we've only had our morning smoothie (banana, apple, pineapple, pomegranate seeds, and a LOT of red leaf lettuce - it made a lot that I couldn't finish.) Not much else to say about this day since most of it has yet to be lived. I intend to relax, enjoy, be love as much as possible, find Joy and Peace and extend it outward as there's plenty to share.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2815333338504721088.post-78431904843445666782012-12-16T09:11:00.000-08:002012-12-16T12:00:22.461-08:00Enhanced by the Light - rest of Day 4Friday, Day 4, I was feeling crummy... I took my shower, as promised, got dressed, changed the (then) depressing meditation music to some quirky Roger Miller - I got out my rainbow toe socks and put them on - I was starting to feel better, maybe even neutral. <br />
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The rest of Day 4... Then I checked Facebook, and the first thing I saw was a reference to prayers to those in CT - so against my vow to not read mainstream media, I looked it up and realized that there had been another school shooting, this one in Connecticut. I immediately burst into tears thinking about all of those people in that horrifying situation, and especially the children. So young, so innocent, lives so short, and the surviving everybody in that school, their lives will never be the same. At that time my husband, Richard called on his lunch break from teaching in a special ed school, and I told him about the shooting, and really couldn't say much more because of the tears. I spent quite a bit of time wrapped in the media, reading all of the crazy arguments for and against gun control. To me this is a far bigger issue than simple gun control. People intent on killing people are going to find the means, whether it's guns, knives, bombs, their hands... from what I understand, tighter gun control would not have helped in the CT shootings case. The guns used were legally the mother's, who was killed prior to the big school rampage. Anyway, I'm not for or against - I hate that topic that goes round and round, when there's far more to this violent and loving society. Media, media, media. Ugh.<br />
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We lived in Littleton when the shootings took place at Columbine. My kids were in 1st, 3rd and 5th grades at the time. Those who were outside on the school grounds at the time could hear the bombs going off. Our house backed up to one of the main roads, and many emergency personnel were going by... let me back up a little, first, though.<br />
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I had just discovered the "Artist's Way" book, and was learning about my creative side and taking care of and nurturing myself. I'd begun to feel the joy in life, and was beginning to see it in the little things. I vividly remember walking the boys to school that morning, and my youngest, Peter, who was 6 at that time, was skipping to school, just as happy to be in the present moment as anywhere else. I skipped with him and felt this upwelling of Joy in my heart. My cup overfloweth as I placed them in the care of the elementary school. I walked home and took out a watercolor picture to work on for the first time - my first, and last time I've ever attempted to water color. I remember feeling the joy of creating, even if it was a little frustrating working with the watercolors. I don't know what I was doing next, but I was still in that state of pure Joy, when my stepmother called me from Idaho to ask if we were all okay. I definitely didn't have my television on at that time, and Facebook had yet to be invented. She told me what was going on just 2 miles from my home. I turned on the television and sat there in horror as it unfolded before my eyes. I called the boys' school and was told I couldn't get the children since the school was in lock-down. That was a horrific feeling, not being able to get my kids and hold them tight. <br />
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Finally, we got the go ahead to come into the school and pick up our kids. I picked up the younger kids first, then went to the 5th grade room, and what I saw astounded and infuriated me. All of the kids, 10 and 11 years old, were huddled around a television set that was broadcasting LIVE, the events that were still unfolding at Columbine. No teacher or adult was in sight. When I found the teacher, she was outside (just outside the room) talking on her cell phone with her husband reassuring him that she was ok. I grabbed my son and we all left for home.<br />
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When we got home, we watched for about 15minutes more to see if there was more information. Then I had to shut it off for my sake and for the boys' sakes.<br />
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The weather was very interesting, I thought, for that whole next week. I was overcast and rainy, and to me it seemed that the entire city was crying, definitely our community was. We were mainly in shock especially as the details came forth and became more clear.<br />
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So, yes, all of these memories get re-triggered every time there's a shooting, which unfortunately seems to be more and more often. I saw a lot of references on Facebook after Friday's shooting to wanting to hold their children close. My kids are all grown up now and dispersed around the country, so I wouldn't have the immediate satisfaction of holding them. They were definitely in my thoughts and in my heart, and I will see them soon for the holidays. My heart goes out to those big souls that continued their journeys beyond this physical realm, my heart goes out to those big souls who are left in this dimension with unfathomable grief, my heart goes out to the community, and to the world. <br />
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I am reminded of some of my favorite lines by Kahlil Gibran:<br />
<span style="background-color: #ebe3d0; font-family: georgia; font-size: 14px;">Your pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses your understanding.</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #ebe3d0; font-family: georgia; font-size: 14px;">Even as the stone of the fruit must break, that its heart may stand in the sun, so must you know pain.</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #ebe3d0; font-family: georgia; font-size: 14px;">And could you keep your heart in wonder at the daily miracles of your life, your pain would not seem less wondrous than your joy;</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #ebe3d0; font-family: georgia; font-size: 14px;">And you would accept the seasons of your heart, even as you have always accepted the seasons that pass over your fields.</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #ebe3d0; font-family: georgia; font-size: 14px;">And you would watch with serenity through the winters of your grief.</span><br />
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Through pain, we can learn deeper love and more profound joy. The rest of Friday was quite melancholy for me, as I processed the events, and the memories, and contemplate the darkness of society, as well as the light. On one level I am not surprised that this devastating event happened in the darkest time of the year, possibly the darkest time of all time. On another level, I see it as an amazing opportunity for greater Light to shine through. Most of us humans regard death as sad and tragic, and the end... this is how we're trained, especially in Western civilization. We fear death.<br />
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What I've come to understand about death, through studies of near-death experiences, meditations, Eastern philosophy and other explorations, that it is not the end - well, yes, it's the end of this physical incarnation, but it is not the end of our souls, or our spirits. We've lived many times, in many fashions, in many Universes. What I've also come to understand is that we have soul contracts with one another, usually to help each other grow spiritually. I believe that includes these heinous events that are created by man. In this regard, these precious children and adults, whose lives were taken so early according to our personality perspectives, agreed prior to their incarnations with their soul groups for their or their family members' greater spiritual growth to pass from this life in this manner. This does not lessen the pain experienced in this third dimension of personality and matter, but from a soul perspective the purpose is reconnection with Source and a remembering of who we really are, resolving duality, returning to the Light.<br />
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<br />Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2815333338504721088.post-87939582833934068862012-12-14T08:57:00.000-08:002012-12-14T09:01:00.730-08:00Enhanced by the Light Day 3 12-14-12The rest of yesterday went all right - although I did only one set of Tibetans in all for the day - I'm pretty sore. Richard gave me a really cool early Christmas gift: a Pineal Activator Kit by Jonathan Goldman. It's mainly a cool tuning fork in the pineal activating frequency with suggestions for enhancing activation. I didn't try it out last night because I had a slight de-caffeinating headache. I used it this morning briefly after the yoga and alternate nostril breathing. The cats aren't too excited about the pitch. When I hummed with it my whole head vibrated, so that was pretty cool. <br />
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I have yet to get in my intended three green smoothies/puddings/soups each day. Apparently that's a big jump from no green smoothies, so I'm ok with modifying it to one or two. I am eating more vegetables and fruits in general, so that's a plus. I keep getting the message that it's ok to be ok with finding the right balance. I had some creative endeavors in mind during this time - but I've felt immensely lazy aside from the yoga and walking 4 miles every day, pretty sore from the yoga, and every day there has been some physical discomfort, whether the digestive dizziness the first day, the no-caffeine headache, or fatigue. I suppose a lot of that is due to the lack of caffeine and getting used to the extra compact greens. I snuggled up with the kittens yesterday after my walk and shower, and promptly fell asleep for 1.5 hours. Today the sun is not even out (from behind the clouds), and I am not inspired to walk yet, and maybe I won't. I know I'll be walking lots with Richard this weekend.<br />
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What I have been accomplishing is lots of getting appointments set: finally get the recall notices taken care of for my car so it's safe, the kittens spay and recovery, contacting preceptors for the the next rotations - actually the preceptor from February's rotation contacted me yesterday, that was unexpected, getting paperwork done for acupuncture and herbal re-certifications. I've made an appointment for myself for massage and acupuncture, as well.<br />
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I definitely am not feeling light, or the Light, it actually feels darker and denser, in all areas. My body feels heavier (I can't imagine that it is), walking around feels heavier, the mental fog feels heavier. Maybe it's more the time of year than anything. I'm ok with what is, because there really isn't anything different I'd do - I don't feel as though adding another smoothie or another yoga session is going to help it shift any faster. I will continue to take care of me, listen to my body and my heart. I know the heavy feeling is temporary.<br />
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I love that as I am feeling this way, I see this post on my Facebook stream by the very same lady who confirmed my intentions for 12/12 to 12/21. <a href="http://drdebkern.com/everything-will-be-all-right-in-the-end/" target="_blank">Deb Kern's realism</a>. I love how real she is. I learned awhile ago that being spiritual isn't all about goodness, joy, peace, etc, it's about authenticity, being true to your own heart and soul, which includes loving ourselves and laughing at ourselves through our mishaps and misunderstandings. We are all God in Action, whatever that means for us and our lives. Without the darkness, there isn't Light to compare. It's still duality, and our choice to live it out on this planet. If it were all Light, then we wouldn't know the difference. I don't know about you, but I often grow weary of the darkness, and the duality and am ready to see it come to a close, for the planet, for each of us.<br />
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I think of the darkness before birth, safely tucked away in our mother's wombs, not knowing that there exists a whole other world that we were conceived and destined to enter. There's security in that darkness, comfort - maybe this is why we are often drawn to traditions and family during this dark time of the year. I remember when I was pregnant with Alan, my oldest son, now 25 years ago. I was 20 years old and taking a Spanish class at UC- Boulder and driving there every day for this class from Golden. One day we learned the verb to give birth: Dar la luz (to give the light). I remember going over and over it in my mind, and focussing on the light. At that time I saw "the light" as the new baby, full of light, which I don't think is wrong... but now I see that it could be from the fact that the baby comes from darkness into light. I thought (and still think) that this was a beautiful way to describe the amazing process of childbirth. Weirdly and ironically, we are born into light, as light, into this strange world of darkness, duality. Our challenge then gets to be to remember our lights, then shine them forth, unfailingly, whatever it looks like. This reminds me of another thing posted on FB yesterday:<br />
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My authentic quasi-crummy feeling self is going to hop in the shower, and see what inspires me to do or not do today... and I'm going to bask in it!<br />
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<br />Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2815333338504721088.post-63882849634620403112012-12-13T06:38:00.000-08:002012-12-13T06:39:20.730-08:00Enhanced by the Light Day 2 12-13-12Ah, much better after a night's sleep. A little sore from the yoga from yesterday, but it's a good sore. Also my head feels a little "woozy", but I think that's because it's actually more clear than usual without the caffeine. No headache. <br />
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I realized that I was hoping to re-share my Council of 12 story on the 12th. I forgot. Instead I will share it today on the the 13th, which works just as well, since it involved them and me, and that makes 13. The information linked from this blog post indicates two major turning points in my life, probably the two most major, at least when it comes to existential awareness and making decisions. Here's a link to get caught up: <a href="http://www.blogger.com/blogger.g?blogID=2815333338504721088#editor/target=post;postID=3766629160896599325" target="_blank">Stephanie's Council of Twelve Recalling</a>.<br />
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I haven't had much conscious contact with the Council since that time - mostly my life has been on overdrive in it's newest direction with all of the implications of that: new man, new marriage, new home, empty nesting, clearing out most of the past, new kitties, more new kitties. My dreams have been odd yet vague, with the focus of my conscious awareness on memorizing drugs and indications, interactions, therapeutics, and everything else in pharmacy school.<br />
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However, last night I had an interesting dream, well several, but the most clear involved my former husband's (we were married for 13 years, been divorced for 12) new wife. She was asking me how my relationship with him has been since the divorce. I described to her that I felt that he shut me out, isn't communicating, and I don't know what's going on. This all makes sense on a conscious level. Considering I was the one who instigated the divorce and essentially shut him out, then it's natural on a personality level for him to do the same thing. After I described this to her, my former husband showed up in her place. He was holding a glowing white key about the size and shape of a piano key. He told me that it is the key to their house and that I could use it any time to let the cat in or see whatever I wanted to see. He then hugged me and I burst into tears on his shoulder. He was very compassionate and nurturing. Most dreams I have with him in them, we are yakking and laughing up a storm about the boys, and very friendly. His wife is always there and friendly too. So, I know on a soul level, all is well, and that translates, at least for me, that the personalities are doing just fine. <br />
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There are a few interpretations of a key in a dream. I have no conscious desire to know about their lives, aside from the knowledge (or trust) that they are doing well. So, perhaps the key, rather than representing the ability to open the door to their house, represents the ability for me to more solidly close the door on that chapter of my life, with his soul blessing. It could also be a key of greater understanding - I mean it was big, white and glowing! We will see if there's more as time moves along.<br />
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It is time to get going on the day -<br />
Already we have had our breakfast: soy yogurt smoothie with berries, granola, chia seeds, flax, and walnuts.<br />
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Already we have had our morning green smoothie: pear, blueberries, kale, and parsley.<br />
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Now it's time for some Tibetans, then a walk, then more errands and tasks, then LUNCH (can't forget lunch!) then another smoothie, more Tibetans, dinner, short walk...<br />
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That's it for now - potentially more later in the day as things get going.<br />
Blessed Light-filled Day! Looks like a sunny one!<br />
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<br />Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2815333338504721088.post-45790508606106472262012-12-12T17:11:00.003-08:002012-12-12T17:11:58.274-08:00Enhanced by the Light 12/12/12 Day 1Day 1: <br />
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I remembered after I posted yesterday's blog that I am planning to eliminate carbonated beverages along with the daily coffee intake. So there, I said it. A carbonated beverage for me usually consists of a stevia-sweetened soda of some sort. My favorite is Virgil's zero root beer. Runner up is Zevia products, mainly ginger ale, "cola", sometimes root beer and citrus. Nevertheless, I won't be partaking for the next 10 days.<br />
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Last night after we picked up the newly spayed kitties from the vet hospital and my VitaMix finally arrived, I made Richard and myself a tangy vegetable soup - it was yummy! However, we didn't sleep super great last night - most likely due to having the kittens in the bedroom with us while they heal, or maybe due to the vegetable-dense bedtime snack. Not sure.<br />
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I will post recipes tomorrow since my energy is pretty low right now. This is likely due to my lack of caffeine, although I haven't ever felt like this on a day without caffeine, so I think it's more likely due to a combo of things. I felt pretty great for most of the day; it looked like this:<br />
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6:00 up with Richard, made us breakfast: spinach-garlic frittata, millet toast with avocado<br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Richard and me in Santa Fe a couple weeks ago, hiking on Thanksgiving Day</td></tr>
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6:30: made our morning green smoothie with banana, a couple apples, spinach, sent Richard on his way, smoothie in hand<br />
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8:08: Five Tibetans, which felt pretty good. They look like this, except this is not me:<br />
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9:09 after yoga I went to check on healing kitties. One of them was not feeling so great so I took a snuggly kitten nap with her.<br />
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3.5 mile walk during 10:10<br />
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11:11 - not sure what I was doing, probably finishing up my walk n stuff. Oh yeah, I think I had some pumpkin mixed in some soy yogurt, which ended up being my lunch.<br />
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12:12 - I was in the middle of an hour-long meditation that was deeply relaxing and energizing. Russill Paul chants, lovely! Had some cool visions and sensations.<br />
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13:13 - After the meditation I got to work getting loose ends completed: filling out paperwork for insurance reimbursement for the kittens' procedures from yesterday, plus paperwork to the kitty adoption people to prove that we spayed. Paid a couple bills, then spent a couple of hours completing my recertification paperwork for my Dipl. OM. This isn't due until August, however the next half year is going to be very full of finishing rotations, graduating, studying for the NAPLEX and law exams, and finding a pharmacy job, and restarting my acupuncture business. Better to get this paperwork done, now, while I have un-pressured time.<br />
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I also got super psyched about creating a super yummy chocolate almond "milk" drink in my VitaMix - recipe tomorrow!<br />
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3:03 After that was complete I started to feel pretty crummy; nauseous and dizzy - I realized I hadn't eaten much solid food today and no caffeine... so I decided to do my second round of Tibetans. I made it through them, and felt better briefly. Then decided to make a small frozen fruit yogurt thing, with the thought that some natural sugars might help. They didn't. <br />
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By the time Richard got home I was feeling pretty crummy, and felt that what I needed was some solid food. I made our dinner: Black bean and sweet corn Tres Pupusas with homemade green chile, some avocado and a spinach salad. It was delicious, and yes I am feeling much better. I think we're going to skip our evening green smoothie.<br />
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I had many cool thoughts about Light today, which I will let gel before I put them into words - mostly cuz I'm feeling tired. What I am grateful for today is all of the amazing sunshine and feeling really really good for most of the day, for resting and relaxing AND getting some important things done. I am also super grateful to not be in the middle of finals right now. This is a first in a very long time.<br />
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6:06: I will close with a post I woke up to this morning. Perhaps if the planet's chakras and ley lines were very open and active today, I may have been feeling this, too, on an energetic level.<br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.727272033691406px; line-height: 15.454545021057129px;"><br /></span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2815333338504721088.post-56025759938818074252012-12-11T11:16:00.000-08:002012-12-11T11:16:15.886-08:00Enhanced by the Light - Prep Day 2 12/11/12I am very excited about the arrival of my Vitamix today - any minute now! I have been to the store to stock up on some fresh green leafy veggies and some fruit to get started. The checkout lady's comment was, "Do you always eat so healthy?" All I was buying in this trip was the stuff for the green smoothies and soups that I'll be adding into my daily routine officially starting tomorrow, but I'll be experimenting later today when my Vitamix arrives. I told the lady that this is a boost to our already healthy diet as I'm experimenting with green smoothies. I didn't go into anything about the Light or purification, or other stuff that probably isn't necessary in the checkout line. The total for about 4 days' worth of smoothie makings came to $47.47, which I noted include my two favorite single digit numbers. <br />
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An even nerdier immediate observation came next, that 4+7 is 11, and 11 is a Master Number in numerology, the most intuitive number of them all. It represents illumination; a channel to the subconscious; insight without rational thought; and sensitivity, nervous energy, shyness, and impracticality. It is a dreamer. <br />
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Then, of course, since there are two 4's and two 7's, this creates a 22, which is the other Master Number in numerology. 22 is the most powerful of all numbers and is often called the Master Builder, turning the most ambitious of dreams into reality, and is potentially the most successful of all numbers. 22 contains many of the inspirational insights of 11, along with the practicality and methodology of the 4. Unlimited, yet disciplined. It sees the archetype and brings it down to earth in a material form. It represents big ideas, great plans, idealism, leadership, and enormous self-confidence.<br />
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Needless to say, I see this as solid confirmation of my decision to pursue this green smoothie Light purification thing from 12/12 to 12/21.<br />
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In wanting to keep things simple, I am not going to adjust much else of my already healthy diet, thus this is not a fast. I have decided that I will not partake of my daily coffee during this time nor my planned single red meat consumption for December, and I will eliminate those news sources on my Twitter account that impart fear-based news. I know these may seem like small adjustments, however, my food diet is already very clean, as is my diet of mainstream media, news, negativity. So, these are additional tweaks that I see as manageable yet potentially challenging. More may become apparent as I jump in.<br />
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My dear hubby, Richard, vacuumed the downstairs floor for my restart of the Five Tibetan Yoga. So, in terms of preparation, I feel I am ready!<br />
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As of today, I have lost (at least) 50 lb since the summer of 2010, so big celebration! No better way that I can see than to ramp up the health and good feeling!<br />
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The sun appears to be at its peak - a good time to get out there and walk while it's out and receive it's amazing energy. Still no Vitamix, but I can get out there and move a bit and maybe when I get back??<br />
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Tomorrow is Day 1 and I am ready!<br />
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<br />Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2815333338504721088.post-42869957712027351182012-12-10T13:46:00.000-08:002012-12-10T13:58:01.802-08:00Enhanced by the Light - Prep 12/10/12<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">It is December 10, 2012... already! Where did this year go? I know for me it has been consumed with the final semester, 3rd year of pharmacy school, and the first 5 rotations of the 4th year. Now I have a break, a breather from the incessant cramming of drug information into my brain, and preparing for and giving presentations, and have a chance to reconnect more fully with my less thinking self that has been there all along, just subdued in the background whilst I plunge forward my existence in the third dimension and duality.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I do believe that all of the meditation and preparation in the previous decades with the healing, awareness, enlightening moments and life shifts have helped me immensely through the seemingly unbalanced nature of pharmacy school and all of the changes that have occurred over the past few years. I am still me, the eternal optimist, full of Hope and Light, bringing my Presence into each place I go and each rotation I am on, making the connections I am to make, trusting that I am still doing this program with my bigger purpose on this planet in mind (even if it might be subconscious, especially regarding where pharmacy fits in, at the moment).</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Having said all of that, I am still perfectly human, and am excited to experiment with what I posted this morning on Facebook:</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: 12.727272033691406px; line-height: 17.999998092651367px;">So interesting - yesterday I decided I am going to use the time between 12/12 and 12/21 to increase my daily intake of green smoothies (which enhances our cell ability to absorb light) and focus energy and mindfulness on Light with the Five </span><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif; font-size: 12.727272033691406px; line-height: 17.999998092651367px;">Tibetans. The first post I saw this morning (linked below) confirms this thought into action. December has always been a time of deep reflection for me, with looking at the year previous, releasing all of it and making room for the joys and intentions in the new year. This year I feel called to contemplate more than just the year's events and growth, but perhaps even a deeper look into duality in this lifetime, and the ability to let it go. I'm sure more will become clear in the next couple of days as I prepare. There are some great ideas for purifying here: </span><a href="http://drdebkern.com/raising-your-vibration-121212-122112/" style="background-color: white; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif; font-size: 12.727272033691406px; line-height: 17.999998092651367px;" target="_blank">Deb Kern's Raising Your Vibration</a><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif; font-size: 12.727272033691406px; line-height: 17.999998092651367px;">.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I had just ordered my VitaMixer, finally after weeks of deliberation, and had been entertaining the thought of doing a juice fast the first couple of weeks of January to cleanse and purify. This was after being inspired by the movie <a href="http://www.fatsickandnearlydead.com/" target="_blank">"Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead"</a>.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And, yes, I know I am not fat (anymore), nor am I sick or nearly dead; however the story was very inspiring. There's always improvement to be made. I've focussed very much on physically improving myself. I've lost nearly 50 pounds since the summer of 2010 (at least measured). I have about 10 pounds to go to the high end of the normal weight range, and around 30 to go to my goal weight since I want to maintain well within my normal weight range. I have used several strategies to get here, the most useful one being tracking through Weight Watchers, being mindful of portions. I also eliminated wheat and gluten about 1.5 years ago to help ease inflammation - with great results! Recently I've also eliminated all dairy products, including nonfat dairy yogurt due to the inflammatory properties of dairy. Due to a recent discussion with a dietician who helps educate on diet according APOE genetic results, I've been attempting to find ways to make vegetables the focus of each meal, with supportive protein and carbs. So, like I said, very physically focussed - and I do feel great, and love that my clothes are looser and the pain I was experiencing has been greatly reduced.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Now that I'm on break from pharmacy rotations and have some nurturing time, I am suddenly fully cognizant that this month and this year, and the much anticipated "end of the world" is upon us, days away! It has been fascinating to observe and witness the spectrum of speculation in society about this auspicious time. There are so many many theories. I am amazed to learn that there are folks who still feel strongly that it's the end of the physical world with mass destruction and mass exodus of life from the planet. Unfortunately this is causing many young and old people to take their own lives in desperation or hopelessness. This seems pretty senseless, especially since not a whole lot has happened in a world-wide devastation sense, yet. It is also senseless for people to react negatively if the opposite doesn't happen as they expect (like a rapture or ascension).</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I am more of the thought process that if something "happens" it is going to be much more of a conscious awareness shift out of the "old", mainly duality, into the "new", which is Unity consciousness. From my time-space perspective (and how could I not have one living in this reality?) it seems as though this kind of shift would take time. And it has. And it will. Things have been shifting for awhile, mainly in the individuals which make up societies. Change takes place one heart at a time.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; line-height: 17.999998092651367px;">I recently witnessed a very short conversation regarding 12/21/12... it was in the middle of a flow of conversation ranging from the future of compounding pharmacy and regulation, to education, to politics, and other random societal things. It went kind of like this: "The end of the world is coming on Dec. 21", "No, I'm sure it's the 22nd", "Well, whenever, it's the end of the world they say." Then a silence. </span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; line-height: 17.999998092651367px;">My thoughts filled that brief silence, not my words. What I wanted to say, but did not was, "So, say it IS the end of the world, whatever that means to you, does that change anything for you today, this moment? Would you make a different decision, or say different things? Would you do something you might not otherwise? The silence was interesting - it's almost as if it's so close there's not much one can say about it, but just wait and see what happens, if anything.</span></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; line-height: 17.999998092651367px;">My answers to those questions are mainly "no, I would not do anything differently." I have changed my life over the past couple of decades to truly have no regrets and to be living my life from my heart. Sure, I might inform and remind people that I love them and to thank them for being parts of my life, and helping me learn and grow through them. </span></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; line-height: 17.999998092651367px;">My focus now is the light, especially at this time of year, as the light wanes by the minute. The sunshine is brief and I am grateful to live in such a sunny place, even if the days are short. For me, if anything is going to happen this month, I want to be as prepared as possible. This does not mean physically. I am not going to gather items to make sure I survive any physical calamity, rather I feel called to focus on increasing my connection to my Source, increasing my vibratory state higher and higher in order to resonate even more with greater dimensions, and view the darkness of the third dimension and duality through an ever narrowing telescope. </span></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; line-height: 17.999998092651367px;">1) With the help of my new VitaMixer (arrives tomorrow) beginning 12/12 prepare three daily specific green smoothies, puddings, or soups to bathe my cells in the utmost nutrition and ability to absorb light from the Sun. I cannot describe the buzz my cells are feeling as I read over the smoothie recipes.</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; line-height: 17.999998092651367px;">2) Every day complete 21 repetitions of the Five Tibetans twice each day</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; line-height: 17.999998092651367px;">3) Meditate on Light and Ascension inspiring guided meditations or music</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; line-height: 17.999998092651367px;">4) I have already eliminated gluten and dairy, most sugar, so the only real vice left is caffeine in my daily cup of coffee, so yes, I will stop the cup of coffee every day. Not much else will change in my diet, except that the smoothie, pudding or soup will replace the cup of coffee and one meal and one snack.</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; line-height: 17.999998092651367px;">5) I have already eliminated most idleness, newspaper, television, chat... what remains is computer and a little mindless game time. I'll have to meditate and see what reducing that might look like and set that goal.</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; line-height: 17.999998092651367px;">6) Focus on only Love, Joy, and Hope and journal on it. I know that each day is going to have a theme that will be revealed in the day.</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; line-height: 17.999998092651367px;">More things might occur to me in the next day in preparation, however I definitely want to keep it simple. If you've read this far, will you join me in this endeavor? If you're interested, let me know!</span></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #351c75; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I cannot believe that it is November 4 already. My goal was to write more than I did last year, but I haven't done it. However, I will share what comes to me today about Peace.</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #351c75; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I am all about Peace, and I maintain my very short Peace blog from last year that all Peace begins within each person. I see this all around me, in my day to day wanderings on 4th year pharmacy rotations, in society, in politics, especially this year with the presidential race coming to a close. I feel strongly that those who finger point and wish to control other people's lives are not feeling very peaceful and content within their own lives. I know, for me, that once I found my internal Peace, and remember how to find it if I forget (I'm human), my life has been far less about making other people happy or wondering if I am doing the right thing in other's eyes, and much more about basking in the flow of life and loving each moment and the miracles it brings. The more in the flow, the more miracles. Life is a miracle, and everything in life is a miracle. </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #351c75; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I wish this internal Peace for every single person on this planet, this Peace in their hearts, the Love and Joy of being alive. I spread my arms open wide to share my own Heart and the Love I have for Life. May this plant one of billions of seeds for our planet and Universe. May we all breathe this in and may the planet breathe a Peaceful sigh of relief!</span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2815333338504721088.post-35489774259307134782011-11-04T05:52:00.000-07:002011-11-04T05:53:42.520-07:00Dona Nobis Pacem<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif; font-size: large;">Peace must come from within before it is experienced from outside of ourselves. We cannot expect our peace to come from external sources. Once we come to terms with ourselves and our own lives, and are no longer in battle with our own selves, then we have no need or desire to battle with others, then the magical happens, and peace surrounds us and we ARE Peace and we can spread Peace by example.</span><br />
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The burn of words unspoken</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">The congestion of tears unshed</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Fever pitches as I wallow</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Hot flashes</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">The fire sears my core</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">The next moment the chills freeze my bones</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Unforgiveness swallows me</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Days go by</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">All too familiar</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Yet it has been a long while</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Familiar it is</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">My heart yearns</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">My mind knows better</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Just keep quiet, it says</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">It's easier this way</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Keep the Peace</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">It's easier this way</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Meanwhile, my soul screams</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">See me for who I am</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Not for what you've decided I am</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Or for what you've decided I've decided I am</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">See me for who I am </span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Not for who I've married</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Not for what I'm doing with my life</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">See me for who I am</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">I know it's hard when I don't share</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Anymore</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">It's safer that way</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">For me</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">See me for who I am</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">For the gifts I have to offer</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Se aside your fears</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">See me for who I am</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Stop hiding behind the red and orange ooze</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Show me who you are</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">For real</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Get real</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Live Life!</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Be present</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Your children need you</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Neither the surface</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Nor the depths</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Are okay here</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Years ago I arrived at</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Okay with it not being okay</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">I was okay with that</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Right now I am not okay</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">There is so much more</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Please treat me like a person you really</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Really, really, really, REALLY</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Care about</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">My open attempts in the past</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Greeted with stoic impartiality</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Or stunned silence</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Thank you for your recent defenses</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">I acknowledge them</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">I know they come with new awareness</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">I am grateful</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">My heart cannot grasp</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">That you do not see me beyond this</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">It remains protected</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Between my lungs</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Thumping with each second</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">As time moves on</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Into the future</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">I release and allow</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">With a tenderized heart</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">You to be my guide</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">My teacher</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">The knowledge of Love</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Being there</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">And I know</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">All is as it should be</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Probably for this very reason </span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">I learn and grow</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Discovering more strength in myself</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">I recognize the reality</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">For strength in reaching out</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">To others</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">This planet holds more than just me</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">We are not by ourselves</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">The balm of forgiveness</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Where there is nothing to forgive</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Of realization</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Washes over my throat</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Tears on my pillow</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Clarity</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Wisdom</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Freedom within</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Tomorrow I awkaen</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Abundant energy and joy</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">My true nature</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">With gratitude</span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2815333338504721088.post-79815708579367916432011-06-17T19:47:00.000-07:002011-06-17T19:47:00.106-07:00Things Esoteric: Winds of Change<a href="http://pharmdacu.blogspot.com/2011/06/winds-of-change.html?spref=bl">Things Esoteric: Winds of Change</a>: "I feel somewhat unsettled as the wind is howling and the trees are swaying violently outside. The sky is dark with gray with forebodin..."Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2815333338504721088.post-87679167734093278432011-06-17T19:44:00.000-07:002011-06-17T19:44:19.053-07:00Winds of Change<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml> <w:WordDocument> <w:View>Normal</w:View> <w:Zoom>0</w:Zoom> <w:TrackMoves/> <w:TrackFormatting/> <w:DoNotShowPropertyChanges/> <w:PunctuationKerning/> <w:ValidateAgainstSchemas/> <w:SaveIfXMLInvalid>false</w:SaveIfXMLInvalid> <w:IgnoreMixedContent>false</w:IgnoreMixedContent> <w:AlwaysShowPlaceholderText>false</w:AlwaysShowPlaceholderText> <w:DoNotPromoteQF/> <w:LidThemeOther>EN-US</w:LidThemeOther> <w:LidThemeAsian>X-NONE</w:LidThemeAsian> <w:LidThemeComplexScript>X-NONE</w:LidThemeComplexScript> <w:Compatibility> <w:BreakWrappedTables/> <w:SnapToGridInCell/> <w:WrapTextWithPunct/> <w:UseAsianBreakRules/> <w:DontGrowAutofit/> <w:SplitPgBreakAndParaMark/> <w:DontVertAlignCellWithSp/> <w:DontBreakConstrainedForcedTables/> <w:DontVertAlignInTxbx/> <w:Word11KerningPairs/> <w:CachedColBalance/> </w:Compatibility> <w:BrowserLevel>MicrosoftInternetExplorer4</w:BrowserLevel> <m:mathPr> <m:mathFont m:val="Cambria Math"/> <m:brkBin m:val="before"/> <m:brkBinSub m:val="--"/> <m:smallFrac m:val="off"/> <m:dispDef/> <m:lMargin m:val="0"/> <m:rMargin m:val="0"/> <m:defJc m:val="centerGroup"/> <m:wrapIndent m:val="1440"/> <m:intLim m:val="subSup"/> <m:naryLim m:val="undOvr"/> </m:mathPr></w:WordDocument> </xml><![endif]--><!--[if gte mso 9]><xml> <w:LatentStyles DefLockedState="false" DefUnhideWhenUsed="true"
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<div class="MsoNormal">I feel somewhat unsettled as the wind is howling and the trees are swaying violently outside. <span> </span>The sky is dark with gray with foreboding.<span> </span>Maybe it’s stir craziness I’m experiencing from having been in bed for the last week with a strange illness that can’t seem to decide what it is, and is taking its time taking its leave.<span> </span>I’m pretty sick and tired of being sick and tired.<span> </span>I know, well, have learned, in the past, that when I get sick enough to knock me out of commission as I’ve been, my life is about to change.<span> </span>It’s a cocooning of sorts, a reorganization.<span> </span>I am definitely very happy with my life in this place to where it has evolved, and am open to change for even better, on whatever level.<span> </span>This said, this doesn’t feel to me like a cocooning on a personal level, it definitely feels more of a stepping back from the humanity and planetary level.<span> </span>After a conversation with my mother earlier today, who is also suffering from this strange malady, I realize that perhaps the Universe is telling us to take cover, lay low for a bit, perhaps...rest up.<span> </span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">I can only surmise or speculate that this may have something to do with the recent solar flares, with which their Earth arrival corresponded precisely with the onset of my illness, which has been fiery, feverish, with burning pain, mainly in my throat.<span> </span>During the illness, some thoughts occurred to me, in light of, in spite of, or instead of the solar flare possibility.<span> </span>One thought is that on a humanity level we are being dredged for the final drudge of karma that can be elicited before we have the opportunity for Ascension, if that is where we’re headed.<span> </span>My human mind has no idea, and I have no answers, all I can do is go with the flow.<span> </span><span> </span>Bizarre things are happening in the world, even more so than usual, it seems.<span> </span>My dreams have been ultra strange during this illness, and I haven’t had the time or energy to analyze them.<span> </span>I’m okay with that, as it feels they are processing and processing…something.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">Meanwhile, I feel more and more disconnected from humanity, and have no interest in the chaos that humanity pours on itself.<span> </span>The personal dramas, the work dramas, the political dramas… are all karma either being played out or transcended.<span> </span>Somehow I see beyond the drama, directly to the soul connection, the love, and can see that there is no reason for fear.<span> </span>Death is not to fear, none of what we experience in life or are about to experience is to fear.<span> </span>Life would be very, very different for every individual, and thus our collective communities if all decisions were made in love, instead of fear. <span> </span>This would also be a different life if Earth’s inhabitants had no fear of death.<span> </span>There was a particular scene that reminded of this, in Shirley MacLain’s miniseries <u>Out On a Limb.</u><span> </span>I hadn’t read her book or watched the miniseries before last night, but I have read much over the past 15 years about near death experiences, out of body experiences, spiritual matters, etc., and have had plenty of direct experiences that have brought my thought process to where it resides currently.<span> </span>It was interesting to watch her metamorphosis, like a butterfly, through the show.<span> </span>She resisted every step of the way, it appeared, but finally came to the realization that what she was experiencing and hearing was real and she obviously took action on the information she received.<span> </span>Her experiences were more real than this weird world we live in and have collectively created for ourselves.<span> </span>I am very glad to be reminded of this in this entertaining manner, although our true nature is almost always on my mind. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">I’ve also been reading a very interesting book on Dreaming and the Kaballah.<span> </span>The premise is that our awakened state is at least as much of a dream-time than our sleeping state.<span> </span>I’m not finished reading it yet, but I am sure I will have more to contemplate on this and the implications.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">The theme this week in my awareness, it seems, is letting go.<span> </span>In A Course in Miracles, our lessons have been about letting go (“loose-ing”) of the world we have created.<span> </span>A client of mine’s main desire was to “let go” of the stuff he was ready to release so that he could move forward into his new life.<span> </span>Letting go is one of the most difficult things a person can do.<span> </span>What does it take to let go of the worry? <span> </span>To let go of the fear?<span> </span>To let go of having to know the how, or the why, or all of the answers.<span> </span>If we let go, what are we left with?<span> </span>Who are we without that fear?<span> </span>Who are we without that worry?<span> </span>Do we feel like we have to worry about something to be doing it “right”?<span> </span>Do we have to be doing everything right?<span> </span>If we let go of fear, are we out of our minds?<span> </span>Maybe so.<span> </span>Is that such a bad place to be?<span> </span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">In Chinese medicine, letting go is the action of the Large Intestine.<span> </span>We take in the events life presents to us (through the Stomach/solar plexus/Liver), let it churn a bit, send it to the Small Intestine for discernment, for sorting.<span> </span>Small Intestine is the energy of discerning the turbid from the clear, retaining the clear, and sending the turbid to the Large Instestine for discharge, or letting go.<span> </span>The clear is associated with the blessings, and what we want to keep to enrich ourselves and our lives.<span> </span>The turbid is the crap that no longer serves us and we need to let go.<span> </span>The energy of the Lung is directly related to the energy of the Large Intestine.<span> </span>Lung is about grief and sorrow.<span> </span>If we can grieve something, then we can let it go.<span> </span>Sometimes we don’t know that we need to grieve something, but our bodies will tell us. </div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">Letting go is very freeing.<span> </span>When you let go, those things hold no power over you, you reclaim your own power, and can move forward in a powerful way, rather than a fearful way.<span> </span>Then your energy can be directed into creative endeavors. I realize this takes a lot of trust.<span> </span>Trust in yourself, trust that everything will turn out “right”.<span> </span>And “right” may not be our narrow perception of what is right for our lives, for we see very little of our full paths while we are incarnate and have very little knowledge of the meanings of our encounters and experiences.<span> </span><span> </span>In my experience, once I realized that there is a far bigger picture than my small awareness, my prayers and intentions became more for the greatest good of all involved, and allowing those who had a far greater awareness than mine, to make it happen.<span> </span>I’ve since learned that these kinds of prayers often have the most profound outcomes, as I let go of my perceived best outcome.<span> </span>I am not to judge what is the best outcome for anyone, not even for myself.<span> </span>I can set my intention for what I think will be a great outcome, but I will always end it with “this or better”, as I do not know the lessons that need to be learned or the greater joy that can be experienced.<span> </span>It’s called surrender.<span> </span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal">As the winds and the storm have subsided, I feel more at peace in my heart.<span> </span>I feel more connected to my spirit, and am calmer about the next moment.<span> </span>Solar flares or no solar flares, lunar eclipse or no lunar eclipse, and ascension or no ascension, I know that my life is dedicated to peace and love, and sharing and serving.<span> </span>Perhaps my time cocooning is helping me strengthen this connection to my Source and helping me remember the theme of surrendering to the Greater Good and allowing it to flow through me.</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2815333338504721088.post-55784058678756189142011-05-28T13:47:00.000-07:002011-05-28T13:47:16.831-07:00The Goldfish That Had to Go(From January 2009)<br />
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In this dream I was with my family, my mom, step dad, my sons, somewhere on a trip. We were gathering our things to leave, and somewhere on the trip, either found by me or given to me by one of the sons, I had acquired a goldfish. He was currently in a makeshift fish tank in the cabin and I wondered how I was going to take him with us when we left. Someone suggested a newspaper bag, so I thought that would be helpful. I filled the bag with his water from the tank, he escaped and was on the table out of the water, looking at me. The boys were laughing. I put the bag near the fish and he hopped right in. In my mind ran concerns regarding his being able to breathe in the bag. For some reason there wasn't enough water in the bag, and the fish was indicating, by jumping out again, that it was not to his liking. Then, for some reason, I filled up the bag with milk, thinking this way the fish could have nourishment while it traveled with us. This was not a happy answer for the fish, who, by the way, was more of a Dr. Seuss goldfish than a regular boring goldfish. In the milk it was standing on its tail, with its head out of the milk, almost shaking his head "no". I emptied the milk, and refilled with tank water, in yet another bag, this one a bread bag. There was lots of water, and I was trying to find the balance between air and water, not sure how long this was to be his home. I breathed some of my breath into the bag, with the hope of finding that right balance.<br />
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Eventually my dream went on to the next scene and I don't know if I ever got it right for that fish.<br />
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What if that fish is me? I can be a Dr. Seuss goldfish for a moment. Here I am wondering where my home is going to be when my house sells. Which bag (or home) is going to be just right as I "travel" with my sons and parents in this stage of our lives? Which one provides the most breathing room, the most nourishment, enough of my own environment and happiness? Interesting to note my own guessing game and seeming inability to figure it out and provide just the right environment for the "fish". This is the planner in me, to which I have been bringing more and more balance. I don't know the answers, all I can do is trust that the right situation is manifesting in the perfect timing, as it always has, in spite of all of my past planning and trying to make it work.<br />
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I am open to the Grace of the Universe in this transitional situation, and am excited to see what results come about. I know that the happiest answer for all concerned is manifesting and we all live in joy and great connection.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2815333338504721088.post-1773058676551143762011-05-28T13:36:00.000-07:002011-05-28T13:38:19.721-07:00A Day Without a Name: March 2011(I'd forgotten I'd written this, and meant to post it back in March)<br />
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One day there is a day without a name. And the next day is Saturday. It was an odd dream amidst the enormous howling of the wind and wind chimes throughout the night outside the bedroom window. My vague memory of the dream was that I was searching with my mother for large letters for some reason (see? very vague), and once we had let go of that mission she and I entered a backyard of sorts with a fence, and found the letters to spell out the word "Saturday". Each letter was on a large, maybe 1' x 2' rubber panel, very fancy and rounded with a couple of colors. They had been deposited there for us as a gift from the Universe. We were overjoyed to see them, and whoever it was who left them for us was still there with us, and kept leaving gifts for us. We were told that there is a day without a name, and the next day is Saturday. It made no sense to us in the dream, and I still don't understand.<br />
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Except that today I finally rolled out of bed after a relatively sleepless night, to find that an 8.9 earthquake and 23 foot tsunami hit Japan, and that Hawaii, where my brother and his family are, and the West Coast, are all under tsunami warnings. Many people have lost their lives and are witnessing and experiencing massive destruction. Meanwhile I sit here in the peace of my home, sending prayers out to all of them.<br />
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It is Friday, after all, but these people who have been affected are probably not so concerned right now with what day of the week it is.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2815333338504721088.post-66134718722471273042011-03-09T09:06:00.000-08:002011-03-09T09:23:46.979-08:00Tools for Living?Three dreams I had last night stand out clear enough to remember and comment on.<br />
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In one dream I was getting ready to play tennis again after a long time away from the game. Some adjustments needed to be made before I could play. Specifically, the net needed to be lowered so it would be easier for me to get the ball over it. A lot of time was spent on retying each side of the net in three specific places to the poles that were holding the net up. It was important to tie them in the right places just for me. At one point I even had to use a sweater I was wearing to fully tie the net in the right place. I was fully present with the process of putting the net in the right place for me to play tennis again. Finally I was ready to play. In the dream I don't recall actually playing tennis, but a little later in a dream reflection while I was still asleep I realized that there really isn't any need to lower a tennis net to be able to hit a ball over it. The net is low enough, and hitting a ball over it is actually very easy. In that dream state I was asking myself, "for what purpose was all of that preparation and work?" I will get back to this after I relay the other dreams.<br />
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In the next dream I was walking along a paved trail with several of my family members. The trail ran along the edge of a cemetery in which there were dozens of burials happening or waiting to happen. Most of the dead people waiting to be buried were not in coffins, it was a gruesome scene of dead bodies and grieving and lost souls. Our group was aware of the burials, of the death all around us, but we were not part of it, and knew that we did not need to engross ourselves in it, and we continued to walk along the path.<br />
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The third dream involved an older couple that was unfamiliar to me. They had acquired a brand new "old timey" car. It was large and black with smooth curves. The couple had invited me to go somewhere with them, and we spent quite a bit of time getting into the car, making sure the doors would shut and not close anyone in them. Also, in the front hood, there were spaces to put the food that the couple was taking to their event, so it would stay warm near the engine. We got the food situated and the woman all tucked into her seat, and finally closed the door. This happened several times. Meanwhile the man waited semi-patiently in the driver's seat. He was relatively anxious to get going. He almost took off without making sure I was in the car safely in the back seat, after I'd spent a good amount of energy to ensure they were both comfortable and enclosed properly.<br />
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If there's a common theme with these three dreams, it seems it would be about preparation, or preparing for things/events that don't need so much time and energy for preparation. Why all of the unnecessary adjusting for the tennis net to play again? Why all of the preparation to get in this new old car and go somewhere I'm not sure of with these people I don't know? Why is the cemetery so full of people preparing to bury their loved ones? Why am I so involved in the tennis net and car preparation and not at all in the burial preparation?<br />
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My thoughts on this are spiritual in nature. If we are of Spirit and that is our true nature, but we have forgotten on this earthly plane, what do we really need to do to remember we are of Spirit, and live a Spirit-filled life? If there is an awareness of this importance, our current collective consciousness seems to need tools to get us to that understanding and remembering. Tools are great as long as we feel we need them. By tools, I mean anything that helps us remember or reclaim or re-experience our Oneness with Source. This could be through meditation, acupuncture, toning, bodywork, a walk in nature, going to church, reading inspiring works, and many others. They all have inherent personal value as stepping stones to knowing our connection.<br />
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Ultimately we don't need any of the tools, we just need to know we are connected, we are perfect, all of our needs are met, and we are fully loved. It seems that many people spend a lot of time, energy, and money in tools to help them re-connect. I am certainly no stranger to using tools, for I have many at my disposal, and I use them as an acupuncturist for these purposes to help others. I often tell patients when I first see them (if I sense they are receptive), that acupuncture is merely a tool for helping people tap into their own energy, and healing themselves. It's an energy training of sorts, and ultimately people can, and hopefully will, learn to heal themselves, it is not only a gift through the acupuncturist or meditation leader, or whomever is holding the tools at the moment.<br />
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At some point, tools can become crutches, or maybe even obstacles to reaching our goals. If all of my time and energy was spent on getting the net just right to make it easier to lob the ball, what happened to simply playing the game? The same with the car trip to the unknown with all of the energy spent making sure we're safe and secure, we never actually went anywhere. This reminds of when I first learned some of the tools of Science of Mind/Religious Science, mainly the use of affirmations to realign my thinking and thoughts about myself and Life and things that didn't appear to be working well. I spent well over a year affirming over and over in my journal the affirmations I wanted to be true in my life, specifically about being in a happy and healthy, loving and mutually respectful relationship. Three whole pages every day were devoted to realigning my thoughts with affirmations.<br />
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One day I realized that I was stuck in the affirmations, the tool, and that by affirming what I wanted to be I was also affirming what I didn't yet have. I was holding it all in place with the affirmations. I decided I was done writing about it, I was ready to live it. With conviction, I let go of the tool and the affirmations, and my life began its whirlwind journey to where I am now, living the life those early affirmations and new thoughts set forth. In the process I learned new tools, mainly meditation, acupuncture, colorpuncture, breathing, multi-incarnational sessions, and workshops that helped with each step when I felt I needed them.<br />
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If playing tennis is a metaphor for remembering my connection to my Source, and lowering the net is an unnecessary tool to make it easier to lob the ball over or to remember that connection, all I really need to do is start playing tennis and know my connection without a doubt in every moment. No net preparation necessary. This, to me, means living each moment knowing I'm connected to our Source, being as present as possible and sending and receiving Divine Love all the time, and not be attached to the tools that have helped me get to this point from the past. Their only value is what I place on them currently and what I have placed on them in the past. If I forget my connection and lose faith or trust, I imagine the tools are still there and could be useful for remembering to the extent that I feel I need them. <br />
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I know in this third and fourth dimensional world so much is based on the physical, the scientific, the tangible, and that physical death seems like an incredible loss. On the personality level, it is devastating the pain and grief and worry we go through when loved ones become ill or transition suddenly from this dimension to their soul's next level, as they/we lay our bodies aside so that our souls are free. In our society especially, there seems to be a lot of fear and sadness around death of the physical body. On a soul level, however, this transition is a remembering, a celebration, a re-birthing into the beauty and connection with Source, and while the personality healing experiences are necessary for emotional healing and karmic re-balancing, they are not necessary for our soul's remembering. It seems a strange polar world we live in, and we always have the choice where we place our focus and intention.<br />
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Constantly Life is showing us that we have a choice of how to perceive the events that occur around us, and we can choose to propagate the karma or lift out of it and love from a different place in our hearts. From choosing a new perspective, profound events have taken place in my life which, I feel, have propelled me further along the path of choosing from a conscious soul perspective rather than a personality perspective. I am definitely not saying that my unconscious mind doesn't still drive me to whatever extent, it will as long as I have this human form with an ego, but my conscious intention lay in the focus of conscious soul decisions that may override the karma that my ego has created in the past.<br />
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I've had a few "tool-free" spontaneous enlightening experiences, but have yet to experience Life fully lived (at least this lifetime) in constant, complete and utter knowing of my connection to my Source. My life has come to a very consistent happy place, and yet I know there is an even deeper experience than celebrating the work and manifestations of my intention. I intend to look at what tools I've been using lately that may be keeping me "safe" and "stuck" in my current intentions and experiments, and discern what I'm ready to release and experience more deeply into knowing my connection with All That Is and what that means for my Life currently lived.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2815333338504721088.post-37666291608965993252011-01-22T09:30:00.000-08:002011-01-22T09:30:06.385-08:00Council of Twelve<div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"><b>An Experience in Spring of 2009</b></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"><br />
</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I become aware of Seven, then quickly Twelve Beings.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> They are sitting, no, not sitting because these beings do not sit, they are in a circle, and are very clearly communicating about my soul and my life.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> They discuss in great detail the paths I have taken since the year 2000 following the year prior's choice to live.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><br />
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</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"><b>1999-2000: </b> I was given a clear message one day near the end of an unhappy marriage; actually the beginning of the end.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> For years I had tried to escape the marriage through various means and one day I was doing something relatively mundane, like reading the newspaper, and suddenly a vision of my then husband appeared before me.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> He was a couple of feet in front of me with his arm and hand outstretched toward me.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> The end of his hand was a group of large tentacles and to my amazement I was seeing and feeling these tentacles deeply embedded in my left chest, above my breast. I was very aware and could see that he was taking the energy from my body. I was also aware that I was fully allowing it. From behind my right ear I heard very distinctly that I have a choice to make.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> I could leave this scenario in one of two ways.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> One option was to develop breast cancer and transition out of this physical reality, and leave. </span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><span style="font-size: large;"> The other was to leave the relationship and create a new life for myself.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> With this awareness, I knew somehow that I was going to leave, I just was not sure what choice I was going to make.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> For me it was clearly a choice of life or death.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> Death, at the time, seemed far easier than stepping out and creating a new life for awhile, and I found myself being seduced by the “easy” way out.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> It took about a year to finally make the choice to live, and I left.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> From that choice, my life and soul plan has been about resolving an immense amount of karma, both individual and familial, and quite possibly making a difference in the world karma by having made that choice to live and continue on a shift of soul path.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> For a couple of years after I left, I would have odd moments of realization and surprise that I was still alive, as I adjusted to that new reality.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"><br />
</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"><b>Back to 2009:</b> Recently, before this most recent dream with the Council of Twelve, I had been having a sense that the karma that that new soul path in 2000 set out to balance was complete, and that I was again coming upon another choice similar to the first one.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"><br />
</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Great discussion in the dream amongst the Twelve Beings was made about the karma healed and the progress and path of my soul since 2000, and I realized that there was also discussion amongst these Twelve Beings about where I will be of best service, whether this physical body serves my greatest purpose at this juncture, or would I be of better service in another realm and dimension.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> Whilst I observed this conversation about my soul’s recent path and completion, my mind (which they were all fully aware of) was racing with all of my ego and third dimensional attachments, “Hey, I’ve just been accepted to pharmacy school, and started this great new clinic!</span><span style="font-size: large;"> And, what about my children and family and friends? </span><span style="font-size: large;"> I feel happy and want to live and observe this enormous transition on the planet!</span><span style="font-size: large;"> I haven’t yet experienced the beautiful and connecting relationship I’ve worked all of these years clearing the path for.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> Would you really just pluck me out, just like that?? Do I have any say in this??”</span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><br />
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</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">They “heard” me just fine as they could read everything about me, and I knew that some of that is being taken into account, however what I profoundly came to understand was that my soul’s path from this moment on Earth in this human form is about what I want it to be; pure manifestation.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> If it is determined that my soul will continue in this form for awhile longer, that as it does, my life is no longer about my personal or family karma, and is about putting into action my visions, my plans for service with all of the unique gifts I have brought with me.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> It was also profoundly clear that it is far more than my chattering mind’s decision as to whether I am to stay or not.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> Obviously before I incarnated in this form in this lifetime, I set forth a few goals, connections and junctures ahead of time as a soul embarking on this brief journey.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> So, of course, I can be plucked out at any given moment, and possibly more useful in a different plane, even IF I’m going to pharmacy school in August, or even IF I have three wonderful boys I want to watch grow and live and mature, even IF the remaining things I hold dear are gone in a moment, and even IF my closest and dearest friends and family would miss my presence and light.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> Why would my life be any different than anyone else’s?</span><span style="font-size: large;"> If I am not fully cognizant of the outline my soul and helpers created, how am I to know consciously that I am complete?</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"><br />
</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I did not hear an answer in that dream, but I did get a message that I have no need to “worry” about pharmacy school (I wasn’t consciously worried, but perhaps there is/was a subconscious worry), that I would have ample help from at least several of these Twelve Beings.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> I mentally asked “How” and then I was shown, and through knowing, a download of information, a remembering.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> They showed me this with great joy and laughter.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> It was pretty cool.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> I once had a dream many years ago that as I placed my hand on a book that all of the knowledge within that book became known to me, and this vision was a lot like that.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"><br />
</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">The dream stuck with me for a few days, and I knew I was to write about it, possibly for further clarity, but also to document these messages.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> On a personality level I was not too excited about the possibility that my human life might be over soon, and what does that mean for those around me, including logistics.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> I figure since I wasn’t zapped out right away that I am meant to stay for a bit.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> I was also profoundly struck with the message that I am here to love, love, love, in every moment, and to show love, express love, and essentially to love and it is through this love that all will manifest.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">In one deep meditation in the months after this experience, I was aware that my soul was "negotiating" the kind of death I would experience. One where I'd have ample time to put my affairs in order, and to say my temporary goodbyes and relay as much of my understanding of the process as I could to those who were interested. I also had a sense of if I were to leave the physical realm, I'd have a few months left. It was clear the decision hadn't yet been made.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">A few weeks after that meditation, I felt an indescribable shift, and somehow I knew that the decision had been made. I was to stay, yet again, for now, and more fully commit my life to service and to love. From that moment on, pretty much EVERYTHING in my life shifted. Suddenly Richard appeared, he is so obviously the right person for me, and we both knew it immediately. I moved, I sold my house and released so much of my stuff, my beautiful cats who assisted in my healing in those transitional years ended their lives, I got married, my children moved onto their endeavors, I began pharmacy school, and am successfully fulfilling that vision. It is pretty much a complete paradigm shift, like a fulfillment of the intentions and dreams I worked at for over a decade. Suddenly it was all there. I am still in awe to be here, and to be alive, and ever so grateful for this extended opportunity to live, love and serve. </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"><br />
</span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"><b>2010/2011: </b>Since then I have experienced a few specific death occurrences which are significant.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> One is my uncle’s passing from a brain tumor, and the other is a friend’s delivery of a stillborn child.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> My cousin sent an email soon after her dad passed that had two pictures attached.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> They were both of my uncle with his children approximately 1.5 weeks before he passed.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> Even though I had a little fear of what the pictures might show, I was elated to see all of the love in the people in the pictures and the grin of pure joy on my uncle’s face.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> He was swimming in a sea of love.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> I do not know how peaceful his passing was, however I can tell without a doubt that he was surrounded with and exuded the greatest love there is.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> I held that memory of his pure smile in my heart as I tended to my dear friend as she awaited the day she was to knowingly deliver her stillborn child.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> As I placed my hands on her beautiful round belly, I could feel no life within, only an emptiness, however I could hear the soul of this unborn nonviable child, and all it had to relay was pure joy and gratitude to my friend for this experience.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> There was definitely no sadness or anger on that little (big) soul’s part, solely gratitude and love for having shared this experience with my friend.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> I felt so honored to be part of that and to experience the message.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> On my human personality level I have felt grief and sorrow for my friend, and it was the first time I really ever wished I could do something for someone I knew I couldn’t do, so that I could spare her the pain and horror of it on a physical and emotional level.</span></div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><br />
</div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Also, my cousin, Jenni, and my friend, Theresa recently passed on to the greater dimensions. I think of both of their lives and how they lived them ever so fully. They are both inspirations for me, to take the necessary risks to live life ever more fully. On a human level, I feel sadness that they are no longer visiting Earth to share their lights, but I know, without a doubt, that they are still in all of our hearts, as our angels and our inspirations for our own lives. </span></div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"><br />
</span></div><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif; font-size: large;">Thank you to the Council of Twelve, and my Higher Self for each day that I awaken! </span><br />
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</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2815333338504721088.post-91778901197701165832010-12-24T10:31:00.000-08:002010-12-24T15:28:41.671-08:00Mutual Respect and Appreciation for the Inner Masculine and Feminine<div style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: large;"><b>"My internal masculine and feminine selves show respect and appreciation for each other."</b></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"><b>Daily Thought for Tuesday, March 10, 2009<br />
by Master Djwhal Khul</b></span></div><div style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;"><br />
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<div style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">The yin and the yang in balance and harmony with each other, is the key to great health. The yin, the feminine, being the stillness, the resting, the quiet, is utterly important for our physical, mental and emotional rejuvenation. It's about being present with ourselves, and going within to hear that "still, small voice", which sometimes isn't so small, especially the longer we ignore it. The feminine is our intuitive aspect, the receptivity of the Divine. Often in our society, and maybe many others, people do not go to this place of stillness, of receptivity, of rejuvenation so that they can have the energy they need for the yang, or masculine aspects of their lives: the activity, the expression, the action, the sharing with others, the creativity. If there is too much doing, and not enough being, then there is imbalance. I find this often in my practice, and it can be felt in a person's pulses. This can result in taking action where the action may not be so Divinely inspired and not coming from the most heart-centered place possible, thus causing more problems than creative solutions.</span></div><div style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;"><br />
</div><div style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">The opposite is also seen in practice and in life. Where there's plenty of stillness and intuition coming through, but no action being taken upon it. This can lead to stagnation and illness, both physical and emotional. I often feel in the pulses of my patients an oppressive energy that weighs down the vibrancy of the true pulse. I translate this into the energy of not taking action on something that needs taking action. The patient often knows what it is because they are so intuitive, and that's not where the energy is stuck. Sometimes they do not know because the energy is so stuck, and once it gets flowing again through their taking action in some part of their lives, then life overall begins to flow and they can make good, heart-centered decisions.</span></div><div style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;"><br />
</div><div style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">The perfect balance and flow is when the Divinely guided intuitive "hit" comes through, and we can express it and take action on it immediately. No questioning "what if, yeah but, if only..." just take action. Then we are in the flow of Life and this is the masculine taking taking action respecting the feminine intuition and stillness. It is also the feminine appreciating the ability of the masculine to take action.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">There is much to be appreciated about the masculine and feminine being in good communication and mutually respecting each others importance. This can require a fair amount of Trust. Trust that our intuitive hits are truly coming from a higher place, and trusting that our taking action is for our greatest good. I think it's also about life being a place where we can try these things, lean into them, and see where they take us. This may seem risky, especially at first, but the more the inner masculine and feminine cooperate the more easily life flows.</span></div><div style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;"><br />
</div><div style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">This is often, or maybe even always, demonstrated through our relationships. We attract those who provide balance for us. For example, when I was young and newly married, I was the ultimate yin, or feminine and nurturing , aspect with very little of the masculine; whereas my husband at the time was the epitomy of the masculine, the breadwinner, the decision-maker, As I grew older, and more into myself, and embraced more of my masculine, which for me meant expressing my unique self, and trying to take action on those things that were important to me, this gave him an opportunity to look at and embrace the qualities of his feminine and receptive, nurturing side so that we could once again balance each other at this new level. Unfortunately, my masculine appeared to be too challenging for his hidden feminine, and at the time he wasn't willing to go there, so instead of growing together, we grew apart. I took my new level of feminine/masculine balance, or relative imbalance, out into the world of relationship, with interesting results.</span></div><div style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;"><br />
</div><div style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">There have been many shifts and changes over the years with my goal of being more balanced in my feminine and masculine aspects, and honoring both. I feel I've gotten myself to a good place. I am able to live an intuitive life, and can take action or express myself accordingly. I don't know what this means relationship-wise, since I am not currently in one that will mirror my level of balance of my inner feminine and masculine, but I look forward to finding out and seeing where my inner feminine and masculine might need more attention in mutual respect and appreciation.</span></div><div style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;"><br />
</div><div style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Many Blessings to All of You, You Wonderful Beings of the Inner Feminine and Masculine!</span><br />
</div><div style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">S.A. Lyonheart :-)</span></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2815333338504721088.post-17879471128629641452010-12-19T10:26:00.000-08:002010-12-19T10:26:19.979-08:00The Ultimate Duality: Love and Fear<b>Spring 2008</b><br />
The other day my sister brought my awareness to a commercial that she'd seen on CNN. I don't watch television or read the newspaper, making the choice to divert my attention elsewhere, in more positive endeavors.<br />
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The commercial she saw described a "star" that we on this planet will be able to see both day and night, and that this star is significant, and to call a 1-800 number for more information.<br />
When she told me about this I felt an uneasy knot in my stomach, and asked her for more information. She realized that she could rewind to the commercial and get the number. With that I Googled the number and arrived at several blogs and discussion posts regarding this very commercial that had also been an ad in the Wall Street Journal.<br />
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The short version is that this "star" to be seen is the planet Venus, which will be bright enough at the end of March, 2009, to be seen both during the day and in the night. From there, opinions diverge completely as to what meaning there is about this event. Apparently it is the arrival of Lord Maitreya. And, depending on the source of the discussion group, the arrival of Lord Maitreya either signifies the arrival of the Anti-Christ, and is to be feared and avoided, or might actually be the answer to our prayers for Peace on the planet and is to be embraced with open hearts and arms. On one of the discussion groups convinced this is the Anti-Christ, there was a long list of pictures of the Anti-Christ, and many of them are Ascended Masters, if not all.<br />
The Ascended Masters have been speaking to us, as have the benevolent extra-terrestrials, and showing us the way to our own intuitions and guiding our lives by our hearts. Interestingly, as we discover what is contained within the Gnostic Gospels, the Book of Mary, the Book of Thomas, and others, which were not included with the other books in the Bible, the message there is to trust your own intuition and to follow your heart in the land of discerning Good vs. Evil.<br />
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So, I can see how those who follow their interpretation of the Bible as it is written might see the coming of the spiritual and consciousness masters as a threat or an "anti-Christ", or against the Christ as they know Christ.<br />
It seems to me that the Second Coming of Christ is already upon us, and that is that each individual is opening to their Christ center within themselves and raising to higher Christ-like frequencies. They are opening to their God-selves, and sharing love in a way our planet has not yet seen, except through brief examples in the energy of Jesus Christ. This is definitely not out of fear of the wrath of an angry God, but out of Love for God and Love for all of life and for the greater conscious awareness and evolution on this planet.<br />
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If indeed this is the marking of the arrival of "Lord Maitreya", which could easily be simply a higher vibration of existence, then may we all tap into our own knowing and connection with the Divine and know, without a doubt, how we are to respond. It seems apparent that the response will be clearly either one of fear or one of Love, and it is up to each individual's path of how each will respond. And it is also up to each individual's path to chose without judging others' choices on their paths. For those on a conscious path it is a reminder, whether something happens in March or not, to continually endeavor to choose Love in all circumstances, to contemplate and act on the most loving response in all interactions and with all sentient beings, regardless of their individual paths.<br />
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This seems to be more important than ever right now.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2815333338504721088.post-15826634903289898832010-12-18T21:31:00.000-08:002010-12-18T21:31:26.660-08:00Time is an Illusion 1/08/09It seems I have so much going on, all good and transitional, and yet, I feel as though I have all of this time on my hands. I have set many things in motion... selling my house, applying to pharmacy school, raising children, continuing to practice acupuncture, editing books, writing books, signing up for pre-requisite classes. Maybe it's the balance of yin and yang. Yang being the activity, take action, and Yin being the calm stillness, nurturing and replenishing. In my practice I am aware that there are many who are not comfortable with doing nothing, relaxing, taking care of themselves. They feel they must always be doing something. I do know that for now I need to be enjoying this "downtime" as much as possible, because once pharmacy school begins, everything will shift. Well, perhaps, maybe I'm in training...<br />
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It took so much action to get my house in condition to put on the market. I think it has sat there on the market, mostly due to the fact that I have needed a breather before the next big push, the move into the newer smaller place. I am excited about it, but it's a lot of work for one person. I am feeling it will sell soon, and I can soon have this move behind me instead of before me. Let's get this baby sold!! The price has come down and I'm ready to take action!<br />
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And, pharmacy school, all the seeds have been planted, the applications, the interviews coming up, so at this point I'm waiting to see what happens, and make the best decision I can for where to go.<br />
As for raising children... well, that has been going on for almost 21 years. Unbelievable, but true. A journey I am glad to be on.<br />
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As for my upcoming Microeconomics course...I am trying to become excited about this. Could there be a seemingly more boring class to require for pharmacy school? Who knows, maybe it will be more exciting than I give credit. Maybe it's not about the course, maybe it's about the experience. I need to fuel a little of my optimistic nature over to this, I see.<br />
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So, meanwhile, I explore the Gnostic Templars, the 7 Rays Healing School, reading on Asperger's syndrome, the gnostic gospels, learning about the self-publishing business, and enjoy my friends and family and patients, while I remember the stillness of ample time on my hands. Maybe it's only that time is an illusion, and I am bending it to an extreme. I have really lost track of time lately, although I seem to manage to be where I need to be when I need to be there.<br />
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This life is full of paradox, and this is the one that is most up for me in this moment. I have a friend, who every time she sees me says, 'You always have something new in the works. My life is always the same, no changes.' I wonder how much extra time she feels she has. Not much, I think. Just imagine how much time I'd appear to have if there was no transition happening. I cannot! Life is short, and I'm here for the experience. As my wise teacher in a recent sweat lodge told us, "There is no Truth, only Choice".<br />
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It IS about the experience. Whether it be taking the mundane class, raising the three wonderful children, applying to pharmacy because I can, having a vision of being a bridge between Western and Eastern medicine, traveling to amazing places, visiting with dear friends and loved ones. It's the experience. And, because I know I can, I do... and I be. It's my choice.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2815333338504721088.post-70913460392570043442010-12-18T21:21:00.000-08:002014-09-17T18:08:55.600-07:00Balance and Spiritual LiberationDaily Thought for Sunday, May 3, 2009 by Master Djwhal Khul<br />
<strong>My increasing balance fuels my capacity for spiritual liberation.</strong><br />
Daily Thought for Monday, May 4, 2009 by Master Djwhal Khul<br />
<strong>Perfect balance is the open door to spiritual liberation.</strong><br />
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Balance has definitely been a key word for me lately. I have been drawing into my awareness those who are extremists in various aspects of life, from the fella who weighed 300 pounds and clung with all his might to the canned foods and 6 boxes of expired oatmeal, and refused to listen to any music that had an inkling of flute. He was very slow and damp in all decisions and movement... to the vegan continual meditator, attached to the spirit world, and anti-the manifestations of this planet, and a few other unique extremists in between. The pendulum keeps swinging. Perhaps I am here to show balance to others, I dunno. I asked my mother yesterday if there's anything extreme about me that I am missing. At first she thought not, and then she said that perhaps the only thing I may be extreme in is enthusiasm.<br />
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n.<br />
1. Great excitement for or interest in a subject or cause.<br />
2. A source or cause of great excitement or interest.<br />
3. Archaic<br />
a. Ecstasy arising from supposed possession by a god.<br />
b. Religious fanaticism.<br />
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[Late Latin enthsiasmus, from Greek enthousiasmos, from enthousiazein, to be inspired by a god, from entheos, possessed : en-, in; see en-2 + theos, god; see dhs- in Indo-European roots.]<br />
Word History: "Nothing great was ever achieved without enthusiasm," said the very quotable Ralph Waldo Emerson, who also said, "Everywhere the history of religion betrays a tendency to enthusiasm." These two uses of the word enthusiasmone positive and one negative both derive from its source in Greek. Enthusiasm first appeared in English in 1603 with the meaning "possession by a god." The source of the word is the Greek enthousiasmos, which ultimately comes from the adjective entheos, "having the god within," formed from en, "in, within," and theos, "god." Over time the meaning of enthusiasm became extended to "rapturous inspiration like that caused by a god" to "an overly confident or delusory belief that one is inspired by God," to "ill-regulated religious fervor, religious extremism," and eventually to the familiar sense "craze, excitement, strong liking for something." Now one can have an enthusiasm for almost anything, from water skiing to fast food, without religion entering into it at all.<br />
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I like to see enthusiasm as God, or the Universal Life Force expressing through me. I have the intention of making my life one big meditation, which actually simply means that I am present in whatever it is that I am doing, wherever I am being, whomever I am engaging with. Intentional meditation definitely makes this goal more attainable. I definitely do not have time nor interest in going into deep meditation for hours per day, for there is living to be done, and love to share and beings to encounter with heart. So, yes, I am enthusiastic about everything in my life I have set forth and created for myself. Everything from being a present mother, to pursuing my career goals, to communing with my friends and family. I am enthusiastic about continually learning and growing, and experiencing what I can through this short period of time on this planet in this reality.<br />
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Back to balance and the door to and capacity for spiritual liberation. As I wrote this last line I received a phone call from Creighton University offering me a seat in their upcoming starting PharmD. program. This is, by far, the most balanced option I had interviewed for this past winter. I had let go of it being an option because I had been placed on their wait list for an indeterminate amount of time, thus I moved ahead enthusiastically with my next best option which provided a far less balanced proposition than the distance learning program, but a slightly more balanced option than packing everything and leaving Peter behind to start school in Oregon. So, interesting timing, I say. Definitely taking the most balanced route allows more flexibility and time and energy in my school schedule to continue to pursue 1) my acupuncture practice and new clinic, 2) my meditative practices, 3) a routine of health and self-care, 4) hopefully nurturing and nourishing family and friend contact. These things are very important to me, and allow me to be a spiritual being manifesting my dreams in a balanced way.<br />
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Now as I sit and ponder my initial question to my mother yesterday morning about what these perceived extreme people making themselves known and might be mirroring to me, perhaps it was the choice I had made to go to UC-Denver's pharmacy school and the extreme attention that would take in my life because I would be enthusiastic about the program, wherever school ends up being.<br />
Indeed, I am liberated from extremes, and find balance in my activities and my inactivities, in my knowledge and in my meditation, in my heart when I give and receive love, and share with others and share with myself. This is a very good place to be, a place of manifesting my dreams.<br />
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S.A. Lyonheart :-)Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2815333338504721088.post-16546266671271228922010-12-18T21:04:00.000-08:002014-09-17T15:42:49.053-07:00Wondrous Wallpaper<strong>The Wall at the End of the Hall</strong><br />
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I bought this house with much upgrading and a fair amount of remodeling needed most of which was discovered after the purchase. One of the very minor repairs was to do something about the hideous wallpaper that I'd inherited with the house. Some of the more major items drew my attention first, like $1200 in plumbing within the first two weeks as well as a couple of bathroom remodels, etc. as house projects tend to multiply. Thus it took a few years for me to really contemplate this wallpaper.<br />
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The day I decided to begin, my thought was that I would peel the wallpaper and sand the underlying wall, and then paint it a nice neutral color, and be able to forget about it. Anything would be an improvement. I began to pick at the paper. It came off the wall in tiny bit by frustrating tiny bit. At that time I was not aware of, nor could I have really afforded, the fancy chemical goo and puncturing tool that might have aided me immensely in this endeavor. After a few minutes of the tedium, I decided to take the lazy person's way out, and simply sand down the edges of the paper, and paint over the wall, paper and all. Which is precisely what I did. At least the hideous had been neutralized.<br />
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Shoot ahead a couple of years and no further thoughts had passed about the wallpaper at the end of the hall. It was covered and many other house projects prevailed. One day, my middle son, in a fit of early-teen combativeness decided that it was time for me to address the house. He proceeded to pull off the framework around the area where I'd painted, thus exposing the wallpaper underneath for a thin strip along the edge. I was not in the mindset at the time for home repair, and was able to stop the entire demolition of the wall. However, for the next couple of years that little edge of wallpaper reminded me that I still had much to do for the house before I felt comfortable selling when the time came.<br />
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Several months ago I decided it was finally time to complete the task of getting the house ready to put on the market, in order to downsize and begin simplifying my life as the boys continue branching out on their own life journeys. Given that decision, the painted wallpaper wall was back in my full awareness.<br />
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One morning, I was awakened very early, by 4:30am, which was unusual for me, and I could not get back to sleep. After I laid in bed for awhile, I decided to get out of bed to use the bathroom and get an early beginning to the day. At that time, since there was lots of work to be done on the house, including reattaching the master bathroom toilet to the floor, I was using the main hall bathroom as my main bath. So I opened my bedroom door, walked into the hallway, and saw a stray corner of the wallpaper. I was compellingly drawn to the piece of wallpaper and had a huge urge to lean way over and pull on it. So, I did in my fog stupor.<br />
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As I pulled at the stray edge, the entire strip came up, easily and effortlessly. I was astounded as I stood there pulling this wallpaper so very easily. I thought to myself that I could so easily pull the entire wall of paper down in just a few moments. However, my bladder was requesting my attention and I left the paper hanging, about one-third of the way removed thinking that I would finish later after I'd gotten going on my day.<br />
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I went about my morning routine, had my coffee and breakfast, went for a walk, took a shower, and proceeded to get ready to work at one of the offices. On my last pass through past the wall to get my shoes for work, I thought I'd finish up the quick and easy job and gave the dangling wallpaper a tug. It wouldn't budge. It was just as tough as it had been for all of those years and maybe even before. Very perplexed, I finished getting ready and got in the car, and asked my Guides, "What was that all about?"<br />
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I immediately received the answer. Awakening early in the morning, I was not fully in my physical body and was functioning more so in my astral body. As I approached the wallpaper and the wall, I was addressing "them" on "their" astral levels, more than the physical level. I was thus able to manipulate the paper easily and effortlessly in the very malleable astral plane. And later, as I had come more into my concrete mind and my physical body, I was once again addressing the paper and wall in the physical realm, and it had become difficult.<br />
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There is a huge lesson there for me. I have been shifting my attention to Life being easy; to not feeling as though I need to do everything myself and to allow help in. Apparently my "help" also comes from the non-physical. Well, I knew that already. Also, the ability to manipulate in the etheric is something to definitely keep in mind.<br />
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Sure enough a couple days later, I was up early, not quite AS early as that first morning. My first thought was to finish the wallpaper job. I got up, went into the hall, grabbed the wallpaper and so very easily pulled the rest off. It took only a few minutes. I was so grateful and I AM so grateful to have had this experience. What an amazing lesson to have learned and to incorporate into my practices of prosperity, ease, and alchemy!<br />
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There is more about this little wall in this house, and that is coming up in another segment!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0