Enhanced by the Light 12/12/12 Day 1

Day 1:

I remembered after I posted yesterday's blog that I am planning to eliminate carbonated beverages along with the daily coffee intake.  So there, I said it.  A carbonated beverage for me usually consists of a stevia-sweetened soda of some sort.  My favorite is Virgil's zero root beer.  Runner up is Zevia products, mainly ginger ale, "cola", sometimes root beer and citrus.  Nevertheless, I won't be partaking for the next 10 days.

Last night after we picked up the newly spayed kitties from the vet hospital and my VitaMix finally arrived, I made Richard and myself a tangy vegetable soup - it was yummy!  However, we didn't sleep super great last night - most likely due to having the kittens in the bedroom with us while they heal, or maybe due to the vegetable-dense bedtime snack.  Not sure.

Shakti and Shanti pre-surgery, November 2012

I will post recipes tomorrow since my energy is pretty low right now.  This is likely due to my lack of caffeine, although I haven't ever felt like this on a day without caffeine, so I think it's more likely due to a combo of things.  I felt pretty great for most of the day; it looked like this:

6:00 up with Richard, made us breakfast: spinach-garlic frittata, millet toast with avocado

Richard and me in Santa Fe a couple weeks ago, hiking on Thanksgiving Day

6:30: made our morning green smoothie with banana, a couple apples, spinach, sent Richard on his way, smoothie in hand

8:08: Five Tibetans, which felt pretty good.  They look like this, except this is not me:

Then immediately into about 15 reps of alternate nostril breathing, which looks like this (this is not me, either):

9:09 after yoga  I went to check on healing kitties.  One of them was not feeling so great so I took a snuggly kitten nap with her.

3.5 mile walk during 10:10

11:11 - not sure what I was doing, probably finishing up my walk n stuff.  Oh yeah, I think I had some pumpkin mixed in some soy yogurt, which ended up being my lunch.

12:12 - I was in the middle of an hour-long meditation that was deeply relaxing and energizing.  Russill Paul chants, lovely!  Had some cool visions and sensations.

13:13 - After the meditation I got to work getting loose ends completed: filling out paperwork for insurance reimbursement for the kittens' procedures from yesterday, plus paperwork to the kitty adoption people to prove that we spayed.  Paid a couple bills, then spent a couple of hours completing my recertification paperwork for my Dipl. OM.  This isn't due until August, however the next half year is going to be very full of finishing rotations, graduating, studying for the NAPLEX and law exams, and finding a pharmacy job, and restarting my acupuncture business.  Better to get this paperwork done, now, while I have un-pressured time.

I also got super psyched about creating a super yummy chocolate almond "milk" drink in my VitaMix - recipe tomorrow!

3:03 After that was complete I started to feel pretty crummy; nauseous and dizzy - I realized I hadn't eaten much solid food today and no caffeine... so I decided to do my second round of Tibetans.  I made it through them, and felt better briefly.  Then decided to make a small frozen fruit yogurt thing, with the thought that some natural sugars might help.  They didn't.

By the time Richard got home I was feeling pretty crummy, and felt that what I needed was some solid food.  I made our dinner:  Black bean and sweet corn Tres Pupusas with homemade green chile, some avocado and a spinach salad.  It was delicious, and yes I am feeling much better.  I think we're going to skip our evening green smoothie.

Hooray for Pupusas!

I had many cool thoughts about Light today, which I will let gel before I put them into words - mostly cuz I'm feeling tired.  What I am grateful for today is all of the amazing sunshine and feeling really really good for most of the day, for resting and relaxing AND getting some important things done.  I am also super grateful to not be in the middle of finals right now.  This is a first in a very long time.

6:06: I will close with a post I woke up to this morning.  Perhaps if the planet's chakras and ley lines were very open and active today, I may have been feeling this, too, on an energetic level.

Sai Maa has recently spoken of the massive amounts of photon energy that will be entering the planet on 12-12-12. All of the Chakras and ley lines of the planet will be very open and active. Maa will be offering a very specific and important work for the planet the entire day and specifically at 12pm. 

This energy will shake all of those that are in resentment and anger. We are to tap into the infinite power of love and compassion within our heart and be pillars of light for the unfoldment of the Golden Age. This is the time we have be waiting for. Let us be in and with the light as much as possible at this magnificent time.

Let's hear it for the Light and for Abundant Love!  Tomorrow's a new day!  I call today a success - I'm pretty lenient - :-)  Grateful to be alive!!

Enhanced by the Light - Prep Day 2 12/11/12

I am very excited about the arrival of my Vitamix today - any minute now!  I have been to the store to stock up on some fresh green leafy veggies and some fruit to get started.  The checkout lady's comment was, "Do you always eat so healthy?"  All I was buying in this trip was the stuff for the green smoothies and soups that I'll be adding into my daily routine officially starting tomorrow, but I'll be experimenting later today when my Vitamix arrives.  I told the lady that this is a boost to our already healthy diet as I'm experimenting with green smoothies.  I didn't go into anything about the Light or purification, or other stuff that probably isn't necessary in the checkout line.  The total for about 4 days' worth of smoothie makings came to $47.47, which I noted include my two favorite single digit numbers.

An even nerdier immediate observation came next, that 4+7 is 11, and 11 is a Master Number in numerology, the most intuitive number of them all.  It represents illumination; a channel to the subconscious; insight without rational thought; and sensitivity, nervous energy, shyness, and impracticality.   It is a dreamer.

Then, of course, since there are two 4's and two 7's, this creates a 22, which is the other Master Number in numerology.   22 is the most powerful of all numbers and is often called the Master Builder, turning the most ambitious of dreams into reality, and is potentially the most successful of all numbers.  22 contains many of the inspirational insights of 11, along with the practicality and methodology of the 4.  Unlimited, yet disciplined.  It sees the archetype and brings it down to earth in a material form.  It represents big ideas, great plans, idealism, leadership, and enormous self-confidence.

Needless to say, I see this as solid confirmation of my decision to pursue this green smoothie Light purification thing from 12/12 to 12/21.

In wanting to keep things simple, I am not going to adjust much else of my already healthy diet, thus this is not a fast.  I have decided that I will not partake of my daily coffee during this time nor my planned single red meat consumption for December,  and I will eliminate those news sources on my Twitter account that impart fear-based news.  I know these may seem like small adjustments, however, my food diet is already very clean, as is my diet of mainstream media, news, negativity.  So, these are additional tweaks that I see as manageable yet potentially challenging.  More may become apparent as I jump in.

My dear hubby, Richard, vacuumed the downstairs floor for my restart of the Five Tibetan Yoga.  So, in terms of preparation, I feel I am ready!

As of today, I have lost (at least) 50 lb since the summer of 2010, so big celebration!  No better way that I can see than to ramp up the health and good feeling!

The sun appears to be at its peak - a good time to get out there and walk while it's out and receive it's amazing energy.  Still no Vitamix, but I can get out there and move a bit and maybe when I get back??

Tomorrow is Day 1 and I am ready!

Enhanced by the Light - Prep 12/10/12

It is December 10, 2012... already!  Where did this year go?  I know for me it has been consumed with the final semester, 3rd year of pharmacy school, and the first 5 rotations of the 4th year.  Now I have a break, a breather from the incessant cramming of drug information into my brain, and preparing for and giving presentations, and have a chance to reconnect more fully with my less thinking self that has been there all along, just subdued in the background whilst I plunge forward my existence in the third dimension and duality.

I do believe that all of the meditation and preparation in the previous decades with the healing, awareness, enlightening moments and life shifts have helped me immensely through the seemingly unbalanced nature of pharmacy school and all of the changes that have occurred over the past few years.  I am still me, the eternal optimist, full of Hope and Light, bringing my Presence into each place I go and each rotation I am on, making the connections I am to make, trusting that I am still doing this program with my bigger purpose on this planet in mind (even if it might be subconscious, especially regarding where pharmacy fits in, at the moment).

I still awaken every morning very grateful to be alive and to have the opportunity to live each moment in Love and Joy.  I am still here and my life feels very full of Grace.

Having said all of that, I am still perfectly human, and am excited to experiment with what I posted this morning on Facebook:

So interesting - yesterday I decided I am going to use the time between 12/12 and 12/21 to increase my daily intake of green smoothies (which enhances our cell ability to absorb light) and focus energy and mindfulness on Light with the Five Tibetans. The first post I saw this morning (linked below) confirms this thought into action. December has always been a time of deep reflection for me, with looking at the year previous, releasing all of it and making room for the joys and intentions in the new year. This year I feel called to contemplate more than just the year's events and growth, but perhaps even a deeper look into duality in this lifetime, and the ability to let it go. I'm sure more will become clear in the next couple of days as I prepare. There are some great ideas for purifying here: Deb Kern's Raising Your Vibration.

I had just ordered my VitaMixer, finally after weeks of deliberation, and had been entertaining the thought of doing a juice fast the first couple of weeks of January to cleanse and purify.  This was after being inspired by the movie "Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead".

And, yes, I know I am not fat (anymore), nor am I sick or nearly dead; however the story was very inspiring.  There's always improvement to be made.  I've focussed very much on physically improving myself.  I've lost nearly 50 pounds since the summer of 2010 (at least measured).  I have about 10 pounds to go to the high end of the normal weight range, and around 30 to go to my goal weight since I want to maintain well within my normal weight range.  I have used several strategies to get here, the most useful one being tracking through Weight Watchers, being mindful of portions.  I also eliminated wheat and gluten about 1.5 years ago to help ease inflammation - with great results!  Recently I've also eliminated all dairy products, including nonfat dairy yogurt due to the inflammatory properties of dairy. Due to a recent discussion with a dietician who helps educate on diet according APOE genetic results, I've been attempting to find ways to make vegetables the focus of each meal, with supportive protein and carbs.  So, like I said, very physically focussed - and I do feel great, and love that my clothes are looser and the pain I was experiencing has been greatly reduced.

Now that I'm on break from pharmacy rotations and have some nurturing time, I am suddenly fully cognizant that this month and this year, and the much anticipated "end of the world" is upon us, days away!  It has been fascinating to observe and witness the spectrum of speculation in society about this auspicious time.  There are so many many theories.  I am amazed to learn that there are folks who still feel strongly that it's the end of the physical world with mass destruction and mass exodus of life from the planet.  Unfortunately this is causing many young and old people to take their own lives in desperation or hopelessness.  This seems pretty senseless, especially since not a whole lot has happened in a world-wide devastation sense, yet.  It is also senseless for people to react negatively if the opposite doesn't happen as they expect (like a rapture or ascension).

I am more of the thought process that if something "happens" it is going to be much more of a conscious awareness shift out of the "old", mainly duality, into the "new", which is Unity consciousness.  From my time-space perspective (and how could I not have one living in this reality?) it seems as though this kind of shift would take time.  And it has.  And it will. Things have been shifting for awhile, mainly in the individuals which make up societies.  Change takes place one heart at a time.

I recently witnessed a very short conversation regarding 12/21/12... it was in the middle of a flow of conversation ranging from the future of compounding pharmacy and regulation, to education, to politics, and other random societal things.  It went kind of like this: "The end of the world is coming on Dec. 21", "No, I'm sure it's the 22nd", "Well, whenever, it's the end of the world they say."  Then a silence. 

 Then the next topic.

My thoughts filled that brief silence, not my words.  What I wanted to say, but did not was, "So, say it IS the end of the world, whatever that means to you, does that change anything for you today, this moment?  Would you make a different decision, or say different things? Would you do something you might not otherwise?  The silence was interesting - it's almost as if it's so close there's not much one can say about it, but just wait and see what happens, if anything.

My answers to those questions are mainly "no, I would not do anything differently."  I have changed my life over the past couple of decades to truly have no regrets and to be living my life from my heart.  Sure, I might inform and remind people that I love them and to thank them for being parts of my life, and helping me learn and grow through them.  

My focus now is the light, especially at this time of year, as the light wanes by the minute.  The sunshine is brief and I am grateful to live in such a sunny place, even if the days are short.  For me, if anything is going to happen this month, I want to be as prepared as possible.  This does not mean physically.  I am not going to gather items to make sure I survive any physical calamity, rather I feel called to focus on increasing my connection to my Source, increasing my vibratory state higher and higher in order to resonate even more with greater dimensions, and view the darkness of the third dimension and duality through an ever narrowing telescope. 

How am I going to do this?
1) With the help of my new VitaMixer (arrives tomorrow) beginning 12/12 prepare three daily specific green smoothies, puddings, or soups to bathe my cells in the utmost nutrition and ability to absorb light from the Sun.  I cannot describe the buzz my cells are feeling as I read over the smoothie recipes.
2) Every day complete 21 repetitions of the Five Tibetans twice each day
3) Meditate on Light and Ascension inspiring guided meditations or music
4) I have already eliminated gluten and dairy, most sugar, so the only real vice left is caffeine in my daily cup of coffee, so yes, I will stop the cup of coffee every day.  Not much else will change in my diet, except that the smoothie, pudding or soup will replace the cup of coffee and one meal and one snack.
5) I have already eliminated most idleness, newspaper, television, chat... what remains is computer and a little mindless game time.  I'll have to meditate and see what reducing that might look like and set that goal.
6) Focus on only Love, Joy, and Hope and journal on it.  I know that each day is going to have a theme  that will be revealed in the day.

More things might occur to me in the next day in preparation, however I definitely want to keep it simple.  If you've read this far, will you join me in this endeavor?  If you're interested, let me know!

Love, Joy and Abundant Blessings,
Stephanie

2012 Blog for Peace

I cannot believe that it is November 4 already.  My goal was to write more than I did last year, but I haven't done it.  However, I will share what comes to me today about Peace.

I am all about Peace, and I maintain my very short Peace blog from last year that all Peace begins within each person.  I see this all around me,  in my day to day wanderings on 4th year pharmacy rotations, in society, in politics, especially this year with the presidential race coming to a close.  I feel strongly that those who finger point and wish to control other people's lives are not feeling very peaceful and content within their own lives.  I know, for me, that once I found my internal Peace, and remember how to find it if I forget (I'm human), my life has been far less about making other people happy or wondering if I am doing the right thing in other's eyes, and much more about basking in the flow of life and loving each moment and the miracles it brings.  The more in the flow, the more miracles.  Life is a miracle, and everything in life is a miracle.  

I wish this internal Peace for every single person on this planet, this Peace in their hearts, the Love and Joy of being alive.  I spread my arms open wide to share my own Heart and the Love I have for Life.  May this plant one of billions of seeds for our planet and Universe.  May we all breathe this in and may the planet breathe a Peaceful sigh of relief!

Dona Nobis Pacem

Peace must come from within before it is experienced from outside of ourselves.  We cannot expect our peace to come from external sources.  Once we come to terms with ourselves and our own lives, and are no longer in battle with our own selves, then we have no need or desire to battle with others, then the magical happens, and peace surrounds us and we ARE Peace and we can spread Peace by example.

I AM

I AM Peace

I AM Joy

I AM Enthusiasm

I AM Ecstacy

I AM Love

I AM Peace

I AM

Things Esoteric: Ode to Strep Throat

Things Esoteric: Ode to Strep Throat: "Strep Throat The burn of words unspoken The congestion of tears unshed Fever pitches as I wallow Hot flashes The fire sears my core T..."

Ode to Strep Throat

Strep Throat

The burn of words unspoken
The congestion of tears unshed
Fever pitches as I wallow
Hot flashes
The fire sears my core
The next moment the chills freeze my bones
Unforgiveness swallows me
Days go by


All too familiar
Yet it has been a long while
Familiar it is
My heart yearns
My mind knows better
Just keep quiet, it says
It's easier this way
Keep the Peace
It's easier this way


Meanwhile, my soul screams
See me for who I am
Not for what you've decided I am
Or for what you've decided I've decided I am
See me for who I am 
Not for who I've married
Not for what I'm doing with my life
See me for who I am


I know it's hard when I don't share
Anymore
It's safer that way
For me
See me for who I am
For the gifts I have to offer
Se aside your fears
See me for who I am
Stop hiding behind the red and orange ooze
Show me who you are
For real
Get real
Live Life!
Be present
Your children need you


Neither the surface
Nor the depths
Are okay here
Years ago I arrived at
Okay with it not being okay
I was okay with that
Right now I am not okay
There is so much more


Please treat me like a person you really
Really, really, really, REALLY
Care about
My open attempts in the past
Greeted with stoic impartiality
Or stunned silence


Thank you for your recent defenses
I acknowledge them
I know they come with new awareness
I am grateful
My heart cannot grasp
That you do not see me beyond this
It remains protected
Between my lungs
Thumping with each second
As time moves on
Into the future


I release and allow
With a tenderized heart
You to be my guide
My teacher
The knowledge of Love
Being there
And I know
All is as it should be
Probably for this very reason
I learn and grow
Discovering more strength in myself


I recognize the reality
For strength in reaching out
To others
This planet holds more than just me
We are not by ourselves


The balm of forgiveness
Where there is nothing to forgive
Of realization
Washes over my throat
Tears on my pillow


Clarity
Wisdom
Freedom within
Tomorrow I awkaen
Abundant energy and joy
My true nature
With gratitude